Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Day 13 of Gratitude: Dance
Tonight the family got to see Le Ballet Jazz de Montreal. Despite the challenges of taking two young children to adult art, it was so worth it - especially the second half where they performed this piece "Harry". Very interesting and accessible.
Ballet was a huge part of my young life. Much as the song from Chorus Line says "Everything is beautiful at the ballet ... whenever you lift your arms someone is there ...".
I dreamed of being a ballerina. I attended the best local dance school (a national level ballet school) from the age of 9 to the age of 16, with private lessons and intense dedication.
It didn't work out for me ... I am not built for it and no matter how hard you try (and I tried - anorexia and torn muscles and deformed feet to show for it) in the end I found it impossible to defeat my own physiology. Spirit didn't beat out biology.
That hurt. It was the greatest heartbreak of my young life - it far outweighed any sort of romantic heartbreak I could have experienced. Giving up on ballet was giving up on my dream ... in a way it felt like giving up on myself.
For years I couldn't appreciate dance as an audience member, because it still hurt too much. Now though, I can see the beauty again. I can appreciate how marvelous the skill and dedication (and lucky physiology) of the dancers truly is, and I am glad to be able to appreciate the dance.